Tuesday, March 13, 2007
halt.
I would like to stop what I'm doing, what I'm going through.. I want to cause of it all to go away and with it other more complicated feelings..Wanting and yet not knowing how to go about it, afraid of being found out and then maybe the distance will multiply, a yawning chasm it already is.
False hope, maybe normal occurances interpreted wrongly, in a delusion. Mind playing tricks and wrecking havoc with me.
It's not the past anymore, it's the future, that much I'm glad of. But
it doesnt make it better.
Halt, stop, cease.
Flashes of realisation, but always back into the mire, never lifting free, never far away. I need to have a clear mind, crystalline, lucid, wiped of all of You.
weiwei (: at 2:18 AM