Thursday, September 28, 2006
random musings
its ironic that i still keep this, seeing as how its a relic of something past, and how that has already disintegrated.. i am, according to larissa, 70% on my way to being perfectly alright again. that's welcome news, for sure (: in retrospect, i had something pretty wonderful.. i used to get serenaded, cuddled, cherished.. haha. now its all sanitized, diminished, fading, what have you.. a whole vocab list could go into that but i won't go there.on another note, i am also back on track to becoming a good housewive because i cooked today! for the first time in about 2 yrs.. minced meat and potato (: not sure what propelled me to cut the carrots and tatas, blahblah. pretty proud of myself though, cos i didnt get sent to the hospital - either for food poisoning or macerating my fingers.. haha
spent the afternoon with larissa, and it felt good, really. catching up with her this time was much better than the last time, which was rather unpleasant for both of us, if i recall correctly.. lying on my bed with her listening to my tummy haha and just chatting. i guess sometimes we get enlightened just by talking to someone cos it makes us think things through and we realise stuff about ourselves and others. some revelations today and nostalgic thoughts.. shan't dwell in them cos its not going to be any good.. haha almost time for my daily dose of er aussie, mcleod's daughters. yes, yes, im almost a spinster aren't i? watching soaps on telly. heh.
weiwei (: at 2:55 AM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
me, abeit a rather shallow glimpse :p
favourites.colour:
hard one..i sort of like combinations..rainbows!
food:
bee tai mak. porridge (: ah ma food la
movie:
dirty dancing-havana nights. aladdin.
sport:
i don't actly like sports heh. maybe dancing and kayaking?
day of the week:
fridays! i get that special bliss knowing that tmr morning i get to sleep in
season:
spring
ice-cream:
vanilla with rainbow sprinkles! sorbets (:
current.
mood:
not sure, really..happily eating gummies but only 5 weeks to As
taste:
pretty things..cheery too (: occasionally grownup
clothes:
depends where i am, aye..
desktop:
gummies! orange juice, econs keynesian notes and my princess notebook
toenail colour:
dark red..usually lilac, though..
time:
2.35 pm
surroundings:
reading room of BV
annoyance:
fringe that is neither long nor short.. grr.
best friend:
hmm steph and jon
crush:
nope (:
lie:
that my shoes didnt hurt today..didnt want mummy to say "i told you so"
music:
santos..the guitar group on burke st
last.
cigarette:
nono (:
drink:
orange juice.
ride:
mrt from church..you get to sit if you go to marina bay first haha
crush:
hmm if you were someone i'd want to tell, you'd know ald
movie:
the banquet.
phonecall:
daddy.
cd:
smooth satin jazz compilation yup.
classical songs:
james galway-flute.
have you ever.
dated one of ur best friends:
nopes.
broken the law:
jaywalking? heh and squealing when the car comes
been arrested:
nopes.
skinny-dipped:
haha nopes.
been on tv:
nada.
kissed someone that you don't know:
nopes, one conservative girl here haha
4 things you did today:
went to church, bought a hair ribbon, cooked noodles, stepped on steph's toe.
3 things you can hear right now:
aircon droning, sleeping beauty-once upon a dream, chair creaking
random facts about me:
i'm embarrassingly gu niang, i cant walk properly in heels, i dont like waiting for my hair to dry after a shower, i'm a scout (: enough?
7 things that scare me:
not getting into uni. insects and the like. walking home at night. finding out startling stuff about myself. getting diabetes haha i eat too much sweet stuff. getting tummy aches. erm thinking about my parents dying in the future
7 random music at the moment:
diana krall-the look of love
billy gilman-our first kiss
not sure who-dance like this
not sure who-my baby just cares for me
michael buble-save the last dance for me
dunno..its a hymn-it is well with my soul
planet shakers-rain down
7 things i say most:
so pretty/so cute.sai(yes,alright,not the most dignified thing to say).i'm so chubby.no la.yup.does laughing count?heya.
7 people to do this:
lalala..mark, spongebob, steph.. grr i dont know
weiwei (: at 12:43 AM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
maths is my best friend!!
Ahhh! maths paper 2 tmr and i can't say i'm in the least confident! ): I only have myself to blame for that, obviously.. just hope i'll be able to remember the formulas and how not to be confused if they twist the questions around.. Ate chips again today although i said i wldnt grrr.On another note.. I've been invited into rovers! ahaha i remember when steph and liz would worry about it and i would not simply because i knew i wouldn't, having joined so late and all.. but then.. ahaha im happy (:
And as an update..i thought i was perfectly fine yesterday but i guess im not all that great, basically because if i was totally ok i wouldnt even care, or at least not that much.. ah well back to the plan that has proven so hard to stick to..
weiwei (: at 7:01 AM
Sunday, September 03, 2006
'Til I can make it on my own
I'll need time to get you off my mindI may sometimes bother you, try to be in touch with you
Even ask too much of you, from time to time
Now and then, Lord, you know I'll need a friend
And 'til I get used to losing you, let me keep on using you
'Til I can make it on my own
I'll get by, but no matter how I try
There'll be times that you know I'll call
Chances are my tears will fall
And I'll have no pride at all, from time to time
But they say, oh,there'll be a brighter day
But 'til then I lean on you, that's all I mean to do
'Til I can makeit on my own
Surely someday I'll look up and see the morning sun
Without another lonely night behind me
Then I'll know I'm over you and all my cryin's done
No more hurtin memories can find me
But 'til then, Lord, you know I'm gonna need a friend
'Til I get used to losing you, let me keep on using you
'Til I can make it on my own
weiwei (: at 9:40 PM
Monday, 4th September
Trying to study in SMU with my cousin again, and not succeding very well, obviously.. Got chased out of a study room cos someone else booked it..Packed all the stuff today and put it in another room, maybe being out of sight will make it easier, maybe..One more week to prelims, 3 months to A's, 4 to HongKong (: might be meeting YanEe popo there if only we see each other online to arrange it!
Plan for the next few days: surround myself with people..xuwen, steph, mel..and chocolates aha.. Should be getting new specs soon cos i keep sitting on this pair and its really crooked already, maybe its whats causing my headaches..
On another note, saw someone on the train yest with the chio phone! aha its really pretty.. and today, maybe pepper lunch for lunch, along with some fancy stationery shopping..
weiwei (: at 9:16 PM
chapter closed.
The human mind once again shows it's penchant for being a terribly contrary entity, all the more astonishingly so. How is it that one can both yearn for the happy past and desire it to the point of compliance or begging, and yet simultaneously seek to burn bridges and build walls, to confront and demand answers?Recollections are bruquesly shoved aside, fear of crying a prime motivation. The prickle of tears threatens with the startling realisation of how one word can cleave two seperate spheres with a divide so definite, yielding strangers, and annoyed, one thinks - "again?!". Initial refusal to believe this abrupt turn of events, denial, replaced by a sense of finality and eventually, acceptance coupled with profound regret.
Appeal lost, confidence shaken - prayers continually asking for strength, for courage, for serenity and comfort. It seems, ironically so, that it ended the way it began - a phone call, a song rich with meaning - yet two very different outcomes.
True, this was neither the right one nor the right time - futile and pointless - 'twas just not meant to be.
weiwei (: at 3:22 AM